Being a Mom

So at a friends suggestion, I read Dr. Laura's In Praise of Stay at Home Moms. I have to say I really enjoyed the book. In fact after reading it, I feel like I have a better attitude too. Not that I ever disliked being a stay at home mom, I just have my days as I'm sure we all do.

Anyhow, I've already shared this with a few of my friends, but as I was thinking about motherhood and my beautiful children, I thought about my life before kids. I thought about high school and actually read in my journal from those days and how dramatic it all seemed. Everything felt like the end of the world, whether it was a friend lost, or boy trouble or whatever. At the time, it seemed like this HUGE ordeal. Now that I have kids, it all seems so ridiculous. Like none of it matters, all that matters are my kids and my husband. Although I realize those experiences are what made me who I am today, they just don't matter anymore.

I guess what I'm trying to say- to sum it all up is that I really thought I knew who I was before I had kids. I knew myself pretty well, or so I thought. But until I had kids, I never realized what or who I could be. I had no idea the capacity to love to such a degree, was in me. Not that I'm saying I'm this great fantastic mother, but I feel like I have more potential to aspire too and I'm trying to meet it. And I didn't know I had that potential until I had kids. I didn't know I could love watching my baby sleep without getting bored. I didn't know I could see the humor in my 2 year old drawing on the walls. They are so beautiful and I love them so much.

Sorry if this is corny, but it's just what has been on my mind lately. I recommend the book to you all!